Merry Christmas!

My cute baby all wrapped up playing at the Snow Playground at this year's Christmas Wonderland. A hefty $12 for 30 minutes of snow (or rather, ice) play. We took the last session at 10.15pm and there were only 5 kids, as opposed to 25 in the earlier sessions. And they kindly stretched the end time so Ariel had about 50 mins of play :)

December was a sweet month to end the year.
Had house-warmings, outings, hotel buffet, gatherings.
Lots of quality time with my little one too! Although i wished we could have had more.

My ariel told me she wants me to look after her (and not the helper).
Yesterday morning, she woke up crying and saying - Mummy don't go to work.

I don't think the helper has done anything to scare my child. but which child wouldn't want her dearest kin to be the one caring for her, right.

Looking back at my childhood, there was a painful moment of me clinging onto my mother's leg as we walked along the corridor to send her off to the airport for an overseas trip.

My mother is a high achiever. While i acknowledge that she has done her best to love and raise us, i wouldn't have minded more time with her.

So that's what i wish to give my own daughter now. even better if i could cast financial concerns aside and raise her myself. But i know finances will get stretched and there are so many opportunity costs.

Recently I read a very simple book about following your heart's song. So touching and so fitting. takes courage and bravery to follow your heart, especially in a pragmatic world like ours. But then again, we only have one life and life is short.

Feeling so burdened by thoughts again. Why am i so melancholic :(