3 more to go!

i'm done with 2 papers. finally can get them off my mind and throw my notes into the cupboard. right now studying for soci.. feeling a bit distracted. cant really focus on my readings. so vexing. so shall blog a bit first.

i realised when you don't have something, you won't ever feel the need for it. but when you start to have something, you now acquire a new need for it. think about it. take for example smoking. before you smoke, you wont ever feel the need for a puff. but after you smoke, you acquire a new need for cigrattes. u feel a certain sense of emptiness and unsatisfaction if u cant have a puff. take for example a relationship. before u get attached, u don't really have a need for companionship. but after u get attached, u develop a new need and feel loneliness when your partner is not there. did u ever feel this way when u were single?

so sometimes i wonder.. if things that come along your way are actually strengthening u or making u more vulnerable to a new set of emotions/feelings.

alright, that was just some random thoughts that i had. getting attached.. good thing or bad thing? i deem it'll make u prone to feel lonely even more. of cos this is not the real case, just how i feel (only). hope i'm not scaring anyone with my negativity toward attachment! haha..

I FINALLY SWAM TODAY! the water felt so good! and i feel so shiok being able to pull my arms and kick freely. haha.. i think i've not swam for a month?! and the swimming pool is just downstairs. this is wad busyness robs u of. but it's alright. i don't feel regretful or wasted. cos i know wad i've been doing was all onto God. so no shortchange :)

need to pray regarding some things. for now... FOCUS FOCUS! my last 3 papers. after that i am in desperate need of retail therapy. so many things on my list to buy, people to catch up with!! avail yourself to go out with me ok.. (i know, BHB rite). heh.

back to deviance and social control for now.

oh one more thing.. shouting out to simon for calling me to pray for my exams yesterday. it was a booster! plus ur sms-es to encourage me. u r like Ruth! a friend, always there. thank u!