feeling despondent

Woke up yesterday morning at 7am feeling despondent.

it was my 1st day after completing SOT and NUS. i told myself that i deserve to sleep in. BUT, i wanted to step out into the morning breeze and take bus 30 to uni. alas, i had no reason to be there.

did some work for michael and headed home pondering.

andrew has been very sweet in my period of transition. he took me to keppel drive last night and we had a good time by the marina shore spotting eels. not exactly a romantic activity but nevertheless fun. we also spent $9 on potato wedges. us in our right minds wouldn't spend such money on fried tubers. haha but he said i should pamper myself with mindless indulgence once in awhile.

this morning i helped paul with some work at suntec. and shuling happened to be on medical leave so i jumped on the chance to meet her. we caught 'money no enough 2'. it was a great hilarious show. those complain experts make my money worth every cent. hehe.

here i am now, surfing online job directories, greying my fingers with classifieds, reading my bought-6months-ago book, relishing the idea of having a pet...

actually i'm of good cheer. very certain that i'd have a satisfying career.

but my task-oriented nature often bugs me that i'm wasting my life away. i should learn to relax and enjoy!