every week seems so hectic. i'm feeling tired at the end of everyday. i've been thinking about cca points and all these. it's really quite hard to gain points, u need to do lots of stuff, com svc, plan enrichment stuff.. blah blah.. so much. so i was kinda like calculating for myself. even if i try to gain as much points as i can, think the max i can go is C. i dont have time to do so much com svc too! why din i plan properly last yr.. sigh.. so i was asking myself.. is it worth it? i was talking to liangyi, and she said cca is useless. unless u wanna aim for scholarship, u better make every part of your cert pretty. how come people have such heavy ccas, and end up with lousy cca scores (not saying for all), and those in clubs and societies, who know how to participate in beneficial activities, get much much higher points.. when they are actually committing much less time. strategy.

i feel like mould. got back my SAT score liao... 1160 leh! seems to me that quite a few people r scoring around there.. but it sux! sigh sigh sigh.. i dont want everything of my academic life to look bad. i have a feeling i'm gonna have a bad grade for cca liao.. then.. the rest?? sigh.. must buck up. must improve in training too. dunno why i feel like i'm stuck below. is it cos i din run enough? but sometimes i cant take it.. sigh.. cannot take life easy anymore. bloody j2 stress. i feel like.. running away. sigh ..

anyway.. wed training was shiong.. but manageable.. 50 rounds relay.. (i hate this! sprint then stop then sprint then stop) .. log pt.. 10 gst, 100 sit ups, ermm.. ran outside with medicine ball and ropes, forest walk.. haha. i cant wait to see the attendance for next training. the thing is.. after training.. i think almost everyone had muscle aches.. thighs, stomach. everywhere la. laughing, sneezing was a torture, walking torture, sitting torture. my goodness.. walking around like a bai ka.. then so tired too.. i've started my lect sleeping spree again. sigh. was just talking abt it to mana.. haha..

tmr got math test.. supposed to go st john's home with uray may today but i realised i havent studied for math! sigh! so many things to do..

francis got into hospital and cant train for a month i think. it's like .. this is the competitions season, and he got sick. he trains the hardest too. and now he cant take part in competitions. it must be hard for him. i think his body was telling him it needs a break. sigh.

wad a bleak week. nothing seems bright. no sun too.